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Brian and Jessica
Just a young couple with a toddler, exploring the world and living life happily together!
Showing posts with label pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pregnancy. Show all posts

Monday, February 6, 2017

Wow, so much has happened and I have been sooo bad about recording it! I better do it now before baby comes because I'm sure I'll be falling behind way worse once she arrives!
So my last post was on New Year's Day and our focus ever since has been on getting last minute details ready for baby! I'm down to my weekly appointments now so it's nice to know we're getting close but also frustrating and I'm trying to be patient when it feels like I'm not progressing quickly.
The first weekend of January, we had our childbirth prep class and tour of McKay Dee, which definitely made me feel more prepared and Brian kept talking about how much he learned. The instructor had the "empathy belly" for all the husbands to try on and it was pretty funny. I'll have to include a photo of that!

The second weekend, Aneisa took our maternity photos at Big Cottonwood Canyon and I love them!! I will definitely include those as well! She always does such an amazing job and I'm so lucky to have such a talented friend!!
However, that Sunday we had a bump in the road we didn't anticipate. On Saturday night after the photo shoot, I started feeling sick. My lungs felt super congested and I had a little bit of a fever and sore throat. The next morning I woke up feeling like death so Brian took me to the Syracuse Instacare and what a waste of time that was! The doctor there was terrible. He ran a rapid flu test on me and proceeded to "diagnose" me without doing a dang thing. He told me I had the same thing as everyone else but that since I got the flu shot since I'm pregnant, my test would come back negative and there was nothing he was going to do for me. He wouldn't prescribe me the only thing I can take pregnant, Tamaflu, because he was "looking out for my wallet." At 6 am the next morning, I was in the emergency room with a fever of 102.1. Because my fever was so high, it was causing baby's heart rate to spike and by 11 AM I was admitted to the hospital overnight so they could monitor her. It took over 12 hours for them to get my fever under control and by that point I was so dehydrated they were pumping liter after liter into me via IV. Not a fun time. On top of that, I wasn't allowed to go back to work until the following Monday because I was highly contagious. Normally I'm the type to clean and organize the entire house when I'm stuck at home too long, but this week I was so exhausted all week all I did was sleep and lay on the couch.
When I went in for my weekly appointment that Friday, I was still so dehydrated I spent another couple hours at the doctor's where they gave me two more liters via IV. Not ideal.

I was able to go back to work the following week luckily and since then my days have consisted of working, relaxing at home, finishing the nursery, washing baby clothes and organizing, and waiting for her to show up! My cute young women from church and fellow YW leaders threw me a surprise baby shower the last week of January and that was so fun!

Baby updates.... January 6 was 34 weeks and baby was the size of a pineapple... 35 weeks made her a canary melon, whatever the heck that is and it was also another Friday the 13th (which we love and are lucky for us since we were married on a Friday the 13th). I don't remember what creative fruit or melon they gave for 36 weeks... 37 she was a winter melon (also what is that...?) and this week at 38 she's the size of Swiss chard.
Honestly I think all these fruits and veggies are lies. For a few weeks I was still having issues with my sciatic nerve but now everything else hurts so much I don't even notice it! I feel like a beached whale all the time, my stomach suffocates me when I sit down, I can't even accidentally roll onto my back in my sleep anymore because it's too painful, and my hips ache when I sleep on one side for too long, so I basically toss and turn constantly now and neither Brian or I get any sleep. The whole "sleep before baby comes" advice is total crap because it's impossible.

At my 36 week appointment I was 1/2 cm dilated and 60% effaced, and I told myself I wasn't going to have them check me anymore because it's a no win situation. However, after having terrible cramps and abdominal pain all week, at my 38 week appointment they asked to check me and I let them.... 100% effaced but still only dilated 1/2 cm. Of course I left disappointed like I knew I would because I wasn't any farther dilated, but even if they had said I was I would have had false hope expecting her to be coming any minute.

I went back to work today and the pain and cramps keep getting worse. I know at this point there's nothing I can do but wait, but it would sure be great if this baby would be an overachiever like her mom and show up a few weeks early!! I'll include pictures here, cross your fingers that baby will makes her arrival soon!!! :)















Sunday, November 27, 2016

Whoever said the last few months of pregnancy takes forever clearly did not enter their third trimester the week of Thanksgiving! Life is crazy busy right now and I can only imagine time will keep flying this quickly for the next month until the new year. Let's hope January goes swiftly too because we cannot wait to meet our little girl!

To back track to where the last post left off, the weekend I got home from my work trip was our one year wedding anniversary! We celebrated the night before it since our anniversary fell on a Sunday and went to Ruth's Chris Steak House in Salt Lake City for dinner. Best filet mignon I've ever had or probably will ever have in the future! Coupled with their creme brulee for dessert and I was a very happy camper. Brian had asked if I wanted to go away for the weekend to Park City or somewhere semi-close, but I told him I thought after being away from home for 9 days for my work trip that I would want to be at home and I am SO glad I decided that before I went because I couldn't wait to relax and sleep in our own bed. There truly is no place like home!

On Monday, November 14th (the first week day post-overindulgent food trip), I had my glucose test and next check up. Don't ask me why but I somehow got myself so psyched up over this test, I was totally geeking out over it. I was afraid I would throw it up or not get to the appointment in time or something would somehow go wrong and I would have to take the 3 hour test. But to all my pregnant friends coming up on this: IT'S NOT EVEN BAD AT ALL. The drink you have to consume in 5 minutes flat tastes like a slightly sweeter version of those gross plastic barrel juice boxes we all drank as kids, and I did it in 2 minutes flat. Luckily they called me the very next day and despite my over eating and high sugar consumption for the previous week and a half, I still passed the test and the only bad news was that I'm slightly anemic and they want me to take iron pills. Lucky me!

The following weekend I had to work Saturday and then Brian and I went out Christmas shopping and got so much done! I was so happy and it's a good thing I was feeling accomplished because the entire following week I got hit with the worst head cold I can ever remember having. Maybe it's just because I'm pregnant so my immune system already hates me or maybe it's because you literally can't take ANYTHING for the stuffiness, sinus headaches, or sore throat except like Mucinex and Tylenol which doesn't help at all. (Don't get sick, preggo friends. You'll hate your life).

But it was Thanksgiving week which means lots of business, family functions, and craziness. We spent this Thanksgiving in Utah since we'll be headed home to the east coast for Christmas but it worked out well because Kevin & Amanda and the kids came up and we got to spend lots of time with them which was awesome. We celebrated Dylan, Jaxton, and Sophie's birthdays all at Chuck-E-Cheese on Wednesday, had the huge Baldwin family Thanksgiving shin-dig on Thursday, and Amanda and Lindy threw me a family baby shower on Saturday morning. Baby girl got lots of fun stuff and we are so blessed for all the family and friends who came out to support us! I have to post pictures of the shower too because Lindy and Amanda decorated so dang cute, it was basically like you stepped into a Pinterest board.

Friday marked 28 weeks with baby girl! I cannot believe we're entering the third trimester! She's grown so much over the last 4 weeks (25- rutabaga,26-eggplant 27- cucumber, 28-head of cauliflower.... These vegetable sequences don't make any sense) and is a moving, grooving fool! She loves the sound of her daddy's voice, especially when he sings to her. We're now only 28 days from Christmas and I cannot wait to go home for the holidays and for the snow!! I'm really loving winter clothes and weather since I'm this pregnant. It's so much more comfortable than summer was! I think that's all for now, but I'll try to be more prompt with the blog since I'm sure I'll fall behind again when baby girl gets here! We are so excited and so blessed to be surrounded by such loving family and friends!!
















Wednesday, November 2, 2016



Week 20: Baby is the size of a mango!

Highlights: Conference weekend! I say this every time conference comes around, but it really comes at the best time. I love listening to the leaders of our church talk about issues that we face currently and ways to strengthen our faith in this crazy world we live in now. My favorite talk was Saturday afternoon when Elder Cook spoke. If you haven't listened to it, you should! It can be found on LDS.org under General Conference.

Halfway through the week on October 5, we had my 20 week ultrasound! They confirmed it is a girl as best they could see. She was being so stubborn (just like her mama!) and they couldn't get her to roll over or put her arms down. I couldn't believe how much she's developed and how much more you could see. We saw all 4 chambers of the heart, kidneys, bladder, stomach, etc. Her fingers and toes were so much clearer and she was moving around like crazy. Any time they tried to push her one way or another to reposition her she put up a fight and wouldn't let them! It was pretty amusing to me.
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Week 21: Baby is the size of a banana!

Highlights: Dayne and Ashley's sealing! Some good church friends of ours and fellow converts were sealed in the temple on October 8 and Brian and I got to be there to witness it! It was a beautiful ceremony and their three children were sealed to them at the same time. It was the first time I'd been to a live sealing with children and it was so sweet and special. Another fun part of it was that Brian's and my sealer, Brother Schultz was sealing Dayne and Ashley and he had been randomly selected to perform the sealing, so it was fun to see him and hear how he was doing.

Baby highlights: Baby girl is moving like crazy now. Brian keeps poking my belly and singing the popular Adele song, "hello from the outside..."

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Week 22: Baby is the size of a spaghetti squash!

Highlight: Brian officially felt baby girl move and now she does it all the time!

We had our ward Halloween party and trunk-or-treat and the chili I made for the cook-off won 2nd place out of 13, so that was fun! I wish trunk-or-treat was more of a thing where I'm from because kids make out like bandits and there's no reason to even trick or treat! After feeling like crap and being in pain all day from my back, I was a total party pooper and didn't dress up, but it was fun anyway. The young women were in charge so we had fun games and face painting for the kids also.

We bought baby girl's dresser so we officially have all the large furniture for her nursery and I've started creating some of the other decor for the walls!

Cravings: LEMON YOGURT. For like the last 5 weeks.
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Week 23: Baby is the size of a papaya!

I had to work Saturday, October 22nd so I had off on Friday which was super nice because it was Brian's day off also. We both slept in and then got some stuff done around the house before going out to lunch together and heading to Target to finish up our registry! It's now done, except for a few small things. I didn't even begin to put any clothes on there because I figured it's pointless and people will give us a ton anyway. Plus we have SO many clothes once she gets bigger from Kevin and Amanda. I started sorting them out but I don't know where I want to put all her bigger sizes...

Time is going so fast (yet so slow) at the same time. I can't believe it's the end of October and we only have 3 1/2 months until baby girl is here. The next couple months are going to be SO crazy busy I don't even know where to begin. The end of the first week of November-end of the 2nd week I will be in southern California for a super fun work trip, so I'm excited for that, but also excited for it to be over so we're closer to the holidays!

Baby news: She's killing me from the inside. Round ligament pain and sciatic nerve issues are real. More than one day this week I was unable to either get out of bed all day or walk more than 100 feet without almost collapsing. I feel massive and I know it's only going to get worse. I'm starting to question why I wanted a baby bump because now when I see a pregnant woman who's bigger than me, my anxiety at the thought that my stomach will soon be that big is out of control. It's taking everything in me to stay positive and optimistic. At least I know at the end of this I'll be holding my beautiful little baby girl and I'll be grateful for that!

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Week 24: Baby is the size of an ear of corn!

Halloween weekend, yay!! I have to be honest and say I didn't do much that weekend except clean and cook and relax (which was super nice). Sunday, I taught YW at church and Brian had lots going on with church and school... I swear we never stop moving. But Halloween day we had a big soup cook-off at work and I made a loaded baked potato soup that won 3rd place! I'm on a roll with soup/chili this year. That night we went to Brian's parents house for Lindy's annual Halloween dinner with both sets of Brian's grandparents which was fun. We stayed to hand out candy for awhile and then decided we were too old and boring and went home to relax and watch tv. And of course, Brian did homework.

Today I went to see the chiropractor to get my back fixed before my big work trip! I'm hoping I'll survive this trip (both physically and mentally since this will be the first time Brian and I have been apart for a night since we got married and I'll be gone over a week). We leave bright and early tomorrow so my next week's post will be much more exciting than these mini-updates. 

On a side note... I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE COMING HOLIDAYS. That is all.

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Disclaimer: I am in no way unaware of how blessed and lucky I am to be pregnant and carry my own child. I am writing this for friends of mine who have asked "what is pregnancy really like?" to share my experiences, and shed light on the fact that it's not always as glamorous as celebrities and fashion bloggers try to portray it to be. The act of having children is a beautiful and miraculous thing, but getting to that point isn't always so...

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I've been thinking about writing this post for weeks but couldn't quite come up with the words to describe it until now. I've feared people would judge me for this because I'm fully aware not everyone can have children and would kill to experience these things to have their own child. I hope everyone reads the above disclaimer and realizes I am extremely happy to be having a baby, but I would be lying if I said there aren't ugly parts of pregnancy, and I'm not even to the gory birth part yet ;) This is not to complain about the hard parts, it's to let other pregnant moms and friends who are thinking about getting pregnant know I'm either sharing their struggles and don't intend to try and make it look perfect, or warn my friends to cherish their bodies now haha.

Many of my close friends know that Brian and I planned on waiting at least a year or more before getting pregnant, but that all changed (literally) the day after we got married. I've always chalked it up to Heavenly Father subtly letting me know that I needed to readjust my plan. Almost immediately after we were married, I became subconsciously obsessed with babies. I would dream about them or think about it constantly and it was really freaking me out. I made it about 3 months before finally telling Brian I couldn't stop thinking about babies. He laughed at me until I started telling him details of the dreams and the weird things that kept happening to me in relation to babies. It was finally him who suggested maybe we should pray about it to see if now was the right time.

I immediately freaked out and didn't want to pray about it, fearing I would receive the confirmation that we should indeed start preparing for children. When we finally decided to, I was surprised that I didn't feel an immediate "YES" kind of response, but the thoughts and feelings I had had before kept steadily increasing and we looked at our timeline of goals and plans and decided we would start trying in May. We were blessed to be given the opportunity to be parents so quickly.

However, there are so many things about being pregnant that I wasn't prepared for. I would look at pregnant women before and think they had the cutest baby bumps, they always dressed so fashionably, and they were truly glowing (like the most common adjective to describe pregnant women EVER). I however, am not in the category of women I mentioned before.

I'm currently sitting here writing this fresh out of a shower and the biggest annoyance I have right now is my face. EVERY DAY since around week 8, I get out of the shower and my face is BEET RED. And it lasts FOREVER. My skin is dry and itchy and I'm constantly scratching my face which only makes it even more red.

No amount of cocoa/shea butter/miracle cream has stopped stretch marks from appearing in the most undesirable places. Growing pains? THAT'S A REAL THING. This past weekend I barely got any sleep because I kept waking up in agony. Round ligament stretching KILLS. The "quickening" that people speak of when the baby starts moving? SO UNCOMFORTABLE FOR ME. It feels like someone is trying to gut me from the inside. And because my placenta is in the front apparently, Brian hasn't really gotten to feel her for the last 4 weeks that she's already been kicking the crap out of me.

I have a weird line horizontally across my middle where my pants would normally sit because all my organs are getting squished up into my stomach while the baby chills on my pelvic bones. That "baby bump" I keep taking pictures of is actually my organs causing me agony. It's so great.

I've developed a fat roll under my boobs and above my stomach, so that's awesome. Hair growth? So not what they tell you it's like. The hair on my head definitely isn't growing any faster but arm hair, leg hair, even my eyebrows? Oh you can bet your bottom dollar they're growing at 3x the speed as before. I basically have to get my eyebrows waxed once a week now. Also I have these weird baby hairs sticking straight out from the top of my head and the front of my hair line. If I do lose a ton of hair after I give birth, I'm basically going to be bald because I haven't gotten anything substantial on top of my head.

I told myself I didn't care how much weight I gained. That it's my first pregnancy and as long as I'm eating healthy that I'll be okay. I've changed my mind. I didn't realize how much my weight weighed (pun intended) on my self-esteem. As someone who has always been extremely active, playing basketball, running, etc., the amount of weight I've gained is absurd to me. Especially since my baby is currently only as big as a spaghetti squash and weighs one single pound.

I thought I owned enough big sweaters/comfy clothes to get me through for awhile. But alas. Maternity clothes are the worst because they're either super ugly or super expensive. Pants are the devil. I bought a pair of maternity jeans and I hate them because my bump isn't big enough to hold up the elastic part so I'm hiking them up all day. I can't sleep in anything but Brian's t-shirts. I'm 100% the basic white girl who wears nothing but black leggings all the time because my squishing organs are giving me mad love handles so I can't wear any of the pants I own. Also, don't even get me started on how uncomfortable sleeping is, in any position. Or on the fact that I wake up in pain every day no matter how I've fallen asleep. I won't go back and reflect on the nausea, you get the point.

I totally took for granted the way my body was before. To people's credit, I did hear that your body is never the same ever again. But I couldn't possibly imagine how true that was. So I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I'm not going to look or feel beautiful while I'm pregnant, and I'm trying to be okay with that. People don't show how difficult it is growing a baby. The world tries to make these women look glamorous and beautiful and making us feel like that's how we need to be. For 80% of the women I've talked to, "glamorous" and "beautiful" are not words they would use to describe how they feel about themselves right now.

But that's okay. The beautiful parts are the lives we're creating, not the paths we're on to have them. I'll gladly go through this because I know despite all this, I have it pretty easy. I've had what they consider an easy pregnancy: low-risk, and everything always seems in line with how it should be at the time. I'm ecstatic that I get to be a mom and bring another life into this world. But I don't always feel good, either about myself or physically. So for the next friend who sees me and thinks, "wow, you are not glowing..." I hope you've read this and know it's for your own safety that you don't speak those words out loud. :) 

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

 
Week 14
Baby is the size of a LEMON!
 
This week was eventful! We had a family reunion for Brian's mom's side of the family and we all went camping up at Memorial Park from Thursday-Saturday.
Camping this time was much more enjoyable than Girl's Camp and Moab! Maybe because our campsite was shady with the river flowing past it, and we spent all day on Friday at Pineview in the water, but it was much more relaxing and I definitely felt less nauseous... except for Friday afternoon when I got a little overheated. Overall, I think the weekend was good, but apparently my stomach isn't a fan of the canyon roads anymore because on our way home, Brian had to pull over a block from our house because I couldn't wait to throw up my lunch. Oh well, it was a valiant attempt.
I can't believe in just a few short weeks we'll be finding out if this baby is a boy or girl!
I think that's what we're most excited about. It's so funny to listen to Brian talk about girl's names he likes because he's so critical of them. But then again so am I, so I have no room to talk! :)
I'm still exhausted all the time and there's been many nights where I just come home and fall asleep by 5:30 and sleep until the next morning... Poor Brian.
I'm excited to have more strength and energy!
 



Week 15
 
Baby is the size of a NAVEL ORANGE!
I was so proud of myself this weekend because I regained some of my former social life and actually made it a whole Saturday without a nap, AND I went to Maegan's baby shower and Jordan's bridal shower.... IN THE SAME DAY! (It's the little things once you're preggo!)
It's official. Florida has been canned. But in the long run it was probably a blessing in disguise because I was able to put all the money towards our flights home for Christmas, ultimately saving us a lot of money on travel this year.
*Side note: Southwest Airlines is the best. No change or cancellation fees, even their cheap flights can be cancelled and the funds used for future travel, and they're usually the cheapest and you don't have to pay for baggage. Can you tell I'm partial? ;) *
So, now our flights for Christmas are taken care of and I am definitely less of a worrywart!
This week I've been feeling a lot better. I'm still really tired but not to the extent that I was between weeks 10-13. I've minimized the throwing up to a couple times a week instead of a few times a day, and I'm looking at the light at the end of the tunnel!
I've officially started my Baby List registry because not having things more organized has been driving me nuts, and I have almost all the nursery furniture picked out!
I feel like we have so much going on and so many things in the works but nothing else is concrete yet, so I don't want to spill any of it!
We're still looking forward to finding out Baby Baldwin's gender the most, and we've started planning the gender reveal party :) Many thanks to Sabra and Lindy who I know will do all the work and make it incredible, even if it is supposed to be a casual BBQ haha.
I think that's all the updates I have... if I'm forgetting things I'll blame pregnancy.
The photo above was taken on Sunday, August 28. If I take the weekly pictures on Sundays, I'm already dressed up and forget less often. But after Brian took this photo I remember thinking "OH MY GOSH I DEFINITELY LOOK PREGNANT NOW!'
Luckily, (or unluckily?) as of yesterday I've only gained 1 lb. since my 12 week baby appointment.
I'll just keep reminding myself of that! 

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